So I’m so excited. I finally caved in and bought the camera that I’ve been wanting to buy for the last two years. I got myself my own brand new Nikon D40. Here are a few pictures that I took this weekend just playing with a few of the settings. Hope you enjoy.
I find myself struggling with life. Not just life as a whole, but particularly with the aspect of not being able to do everything on my own. For those that know me, know that I’m a pretty private individual and I don’t normally as for help. I like to keep my problems and struggles to myself. Plus, I don’t want to seem like I’m complaining. I can normally take care of things on my own.
I need to get over this independence issue. Not saying that being independent is bad, but I need to come to the realization that I cannot do everything on my own. I need help…especially God’s help. I need to learn to rely more on him. Who better to rely in, then our Lord?! This sounds like an easy concept. That being, relying on the God of the universe, but I find myself struggling with letting go and relying totally in Him.
Its funny how life changes and sometimes, or most of the time, it takes us to the very place we don’t want to go. I am living in an area that I never thought I would ever live in. There are many things that I love about where I live. For instance, the closeness of every convenience right around the corner, but there still seems to be something missing. I find myself with a lot more time on my hands, even though there is so much more to do here. I’m just not sure if I am completely satisfied where I am with my life. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to sound ungrateful or not thankful. I am truly blessed. I guess am learning and finding that it’s better to be where God wants you to be rather then where you want to be. I am also learning that God desires obedience more then sacrifice and I have definitely have not been very obedient. I am also learning that I have been very distracted lately, and I have lost sight of the things that I love –that being Christ.
I don’t understand why people can’t love and care for one another. Why people choose to be mean, cruel and hurtful. Why is there so much much hate in this world. I wonder if there is anyone out there that cares. Someone who’s willing to listen, willing to care, willing to go the distance and make a difference…someone who truly cares.
I am the one who’s plagued with all of these uncertainties. I feel lost at times. I feel hopeless. I feel despair. I feel unwanted. I am unlovable. I am a disgrace. I am unlovely. But I have to put these feelings aside and remember that I am yours and for some reason Lord you love me.
I am a broken heart that’s slowly being mended. As time goes by, the wound should heal, but it’s just just so hard to let go and truly rely in you.
So I finally caved and joined the world wide phenomenon that’s sweeping the nation…blogging. I know I’m a dork, but what are you going to do. I figure, with a family as large as mine, it’s a good way to keep everyone up to day with the things/stuff that I’m currently doing.
Givorgy Kraskoff : Work + Coffee = Things getting done!
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