Jun 19 2009

Life is Interesting

IMG_5975Its funny how life changes and sometimes, or most of the time, it takes us to the very place we don’t want to go. I am living in an area that I never thought I would ever live in. There are many things that I love about where I live. For instance, the closeness of every convenience right around the corner, but there still seems to be something missing. I find myself with a lot more time on my hands, even though there is so much more to do here. I’m just not sure if I am completely satisfied where I am with my life. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to sound ungrateful or not thankful. I am truly blessed. I guess am learning and finding that it’s better to be where God wants you to be rather then where you want to be. I am also learning that God desires obedience more then sacrifice and I have definitely have not been very obedient. I am also learning that I have been very distracted lately, and I have lost sight of the things that I love –that being Christ.
I am learning that the road that has been set before me is hard, but with Christ I can do all things. I have to come to the reality that before I step forth, I have to hand over my desires to the one that loves me most and know that things are going to be all right. Who better to trust in then my Lord and Savior?

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Jun 18 2009

All These Uncertainties

IMG_5985I don’t understand why people can’t love and care for one another. Why people choose to be mean, cruel and hurtful. Why is there so much much hate in this world. I wonder if there is anyone out there that cares. Someone who’s willing to listen, willing to care, willing to go the distance and make a difference…someone who truly cares.

I am the one who’s plagued with all of these uncertainties. I feel lost at times. I feel hopeless. I feel despair. I feel unwanted. I am unlovable. I am a disgrace. I am unlovely. But I have to put these feelings aside and remember that I am yours and for some reason Lord you love me.

I am a broken heart that’s slowly being mended. As time goes by, the wound should heal, but it’s just just so hard to let go and truly rely in you.

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Jun 17 2009

I Finally Caved

So I finally caved and joined the world wide phenomenon that’s sweeping the nation…blogging. I know I’m a dork, but what are you going to do. I figure, with a family as large as mine, it’s a good way to keep everyone up to day with the things/stuff that I’m currently doing.

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